3 months later......

Well this is typical me, the G thing turned into a relationship & is about to end. Its a shame really as even though I think she is pretty disfunctional I actually really like her.

As I type this I am having a beer & contemplating the fact that another relationship is probably over so how did I get here ?

The 1st month...It really was good we got on just fine. I think that we both thought we had found some one serious & we where basically enjoying each other.

Month 2... We where seeing more & more of each other & would regularly spend the weekends together. Looking back I can see that things where a bit strained..

My birthday, I got really drunk (2 months into the relationship) & told her I loved her, apparently (I am ashamed to admit) I even asked her what song we would play at our wedding. Obviously this would have been a great time for her to tell me she loved me & all would have been well but no. So I felt like an idiot & was aware that things were not 100%.

We had arranged to go away for a long weekend so 2 weeks later we did just that. This was to be 2 days of just us followed by 2 days of friends & family. Things didn't get off to a good start with her having a bit of a wobble on morning number 1 about me being too loud & sweary (which I can be). Apart from that we had a great time doing things that we both like, walking, cycling etc. I was then introduced to 14 members of family & friends & G started acting quite distant. Basically she would be in a flap running round organising things & generally ignoring me. Not good, I left the weekend after having some great fun but also feeling less than happy about the state of our relationship.

So another 2 weeks pass & I'm off again a wedding reception. It was a bit weird as she was at the wedding & I joined her in the evening. I arrived and she instantly said something negative about the way I was dressed. We went for a walk & got over that. After a few drinks she & a friend started dancing & asking me to dance. I got up & started dancing & she freaked out saying not to dance with her but just dance with everyone. I mean really freaking out here & it pissed me off, but we talked & got over it. She was actually being really nice to me, showing affection & making sure I wasn't left alone etc. Next thing (no 3 ) she slipped off my lap & landed on the floor. Again another massive massive freak out. I was pissed off by this point & swore at her, told her to get a grip, no one saw, she wasn't hurt & it really didn't matter.

So the next day in the car we reflected about the previous night & agreed that it was fun but seemed like too much effort. I asked her if she wanted to be with me & she was unable to say yes. Its been a weird day as she has bee hugging me & we even tried to go sit in the park together but it was too weird. She doesn't know if she wants to be with me. She says she feels awkward as we are so different (she talks properly & is a bit posh). I do accept that there is a difference but it doesn't bother me as much. I have told her I need an answer as to whether we stay together or not & she is going to call me tomorrow. I left with her crying & I myself stayed composed, I'm pretty sure its the end of the relationship & its probably good thing as its all been too much hard work. Shame as I really enjoyed her company & now its back to square 1. I feel pretty crap right now but a beer is chilling me out. I really need to move house fuck me I have lived in this place far too long , I need a change badly......

I need to add this for my own sanity. Sex was pretty crap & she was terrible at blow jobs, great tits though, hmmmmmm

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